Not sure if it's the same for you.
The more I strive to be excellent at something (anything)..the more I see the reality of my non-excellence's in my life. Maddening..
Maybe that's the point. The point of me giving up (yielding).
Giving up on the 'relying on' of me. Instead, I need to give it up for the Lord to carry. You know.."Jesus take the wheel.."
-from an undisclosed location